Felt Like My Whole World Had Crumbled, Had to Ask God To Heal My Broken Heart


Photography:Felecia Causey And Provided By ShunDerrica Williams
Hi, I’m ShunDerrica Williams, and I’m here to tell my story. November 2017, I gave birth to my first child that resHi, I’m ShunDerrica Williams, and I’m here to tell my story. November 2017, I gave birth to my first child that resulted in a stillborn. She was 38 weeks, and 6 days. I went into labor with her, not thinking that once I got to the hospital still in full blown labor that my daughter has passed away. The nurses could not detect a heartbeat, and at that moment a part of me left with her. Her name is Saariya Nevaeh Williams, and she has been deceased for 2 years.

 

I was battling with severe depression that no doctors, family members, medications could help at the time. I thought it was my fault because I sensed something was wrong, but I honestly got tired of the doctors sending me home. I was in and out of the hospital. I really just had to pray and ask God to heal my broken heart. The friends I had, I lashed out at them. I pushed everyone away, I felt like my whole world was crumbling down. Also, I tried to speak with a counselor, nothing honestly helped. Each day what I would do to ease the pain is look at pictures of her, and visit her grave. I stopped saying that it was my fault, because it was all God’s plan to make me a stronger person. A friend that this also happened to suggested that I attended a meeting for mothers who have gone through what I did. After going to those meetings, I felt relieved. Listening to other people’s stories, and what they went through really gave me strength to let my sweet daughter rest in paradise. The cause of her passing was Nuchal Cord Death. As I got better with time, a year later, I got pregnant with my second daughter. For 6 months I was in the hospital because I could not eat, drink, or sleep. Constantly in pain, and severe nauseous took over my body. I was on the urge to get a feeding tube because I was getting super small. Nights and days passed as it was getting closer to the end where I would cry myself to sleep, worried that my next child could get wrapped with her umbilical cord the same. Sometimes I didn’t even sleep, I was terrified. When I turned 7 months which was 29 weeks and 6 days, I went into premature labor with my rainbow baby whom I named, A’Miracle Diorr. I had her two months early, and she had to stay in the NICU for 2 months the doctors said, weighing 4 pounds. My daughter was a fighter, she really stayed for 3 in a half weeks.

 
She is now 6 months! Pregnancy is very beautiful, yet a scary thing to go through.







Popular posts from this blog

Interview With Mom of Nine, Photographer, and Boutique Owner Karissa Collins

Image
Photos Provided By: Karissa Me: Thank you so much for the opportunity to have you and your family on my blog. Please tell us a little about yourself and your family. Hi. Thanks for having us. My name is Karissa. We are the Collins family. We have nine children ages 11,9,8,7,5,4,3,1, and 2 months. I am a stay at home mom that home schools all of the children and I run two at home businesses. Photography and an online modest boutique for women. My husband works in finance and we run a family home church as well. My husband also is currently doing a home flip, runs basketball camps, started an axe throwing business and has a wood working business. We also run men and women's Bible studies every week. So yeah...we are busy. Me: What an inspirational family. I am sure many as myself want to know how you and your husband stay so organized. Honestly it is all with God's help. I am dedicated to putting God first every single day. And then just allow Him to guide and direct us. I try to
Read more

Featuring: Tiers of Sweetness; Look For the Bright Pink Door

Image
  Photos By: Felecia Causey Written By: Felecia Causey Proverbs 3:6 Seek His will in all you do and He will show you which path to take I was able to visit Tiers of Sweetness, located in Wetumpka, Alabama. I had fun at this cute location. It reminded me of an old-fashioned small-town romance movie. The owners of the company, Cherryl and Denice, provided an overview of their lives and the history of Tiers of Sweetness. The cake-making sisters are a talented team. After completing a cake decorating course, Denice, who was previously a hair stylist, began her career as a cake decorator.   Cherryl joined her sister full-time after retiring from the Department of Conservation after 39 years of service. I adore how she saw her sister's vision and understood that her love and passion were revealed while assisting her. When I visited, the women were very  friendly. I was captivated by their account of how God served as their compass and mentor during their business efforts. They discovered
Read more

Featuring Interview with Cake Designer Nicole of OKC Cake Lady

Image
Photos Provided By Nicole   Me: Hi Nicole! How did you start your passion for designing cakes and where are you located? Hi! I am located in Oklahoma City Oklahoma. I started working at a grocery store whenever I was 18 years old. I have always been a car Enthusiast and I had a mini truck that I was fixing up as a hobby. The grocery store manager asked if I wanted to work in the bakery to get more hours. Well, more hours equaled more money for my truck, and I kindly took them up on their offer. From there, I started in the bakery, and I absolutely loved it. I could not get enough of getting to create and putting smiles on customers faces. Me: What made you take a leap into starting your own business? I have always loved business. When I walk into other people's stores, I always look for ways to try to improve their store in my head. So, after working in the bakery for years I just knew that I could do this on my own and I would be a lot happier. I knew that being in my own environm
Read more

Featuring Tea Town in Montgomery, AL

Image
Written By: Felecia Causey Tea Town is a family-owned restaurant located in Montgomery, AL.  It’s in a great location right off Vaughn Road, close to the AMC movie theater. The first thing that caught my attention was how clean it was.  I enjoyed how peaceful it seemed.  Oh, my goodness, my readers and followers know how important good customer service is to me.  The entire family that was there was so welcoming. I was impressed when they asked if I had any food allergies.  That was very courteous of them.    I wanted to get a little more background of this family.  Just by talking to Buu and Brandi I knew they were aiming to build relationships with their customers. Watching the interactions between them and each person that came through the door, told me that they would treat their customers like family.  It will definitely set them apart from many other restaurants in my book. Phat Trieu and Cam Thai came from Vietnam along with their kids.   They have been cooking for years and
Read more