Had To Take My Life Back

I was in an abusive relationship for 6 years.  I dealt with emotional, mental and physical  abuse from the  father of my kids. The signs started to show after months of us dating, and shortly after I found out I was expecting.  Every time I turn around there's was always another female he was cheating on me with.  I didn't want my girls to grow up without a father, so I suffered and lived in what felt like was hell.  It didn't matter how hard I tried or what I did, it was never enough.  When we would have disagreements,  he would say he didn't love me, and leave for days or sometimes weeks. When he would come back, and we would try to work it out for the kids sake.   The past years we would physical fight at least once a week, and every time it got worse and worse.  I still tried to convince myself I could repair the relationship.  I didn't  have any support from him financially because all the bills were in my name in the house. He would take my car, go see other women, and money started missing out my purse. He would just be so disrespectful when others were around especially this one particular male cousin.

 The last incident  that happened caused  me a black eye which I had to be admitted to hospital. I had bruises all over my body, and my kids witness the whole thing. I also found out he had another child on the way.   I realized there was only one thing left this man could do to me at this point, which was kill me cause he had done everything else. As I looked in the mirror everyday and the pictures  that were taken that day I decided to walk away from that addiction (him), and focus on me and my girls.  The next couple of days, I cried. The way things went between us happen so much I started to become numb, and I thought that maybe this is what love felt like.  Then one day I talked to my pastor, and she said  "the Lord tried to remove you from the situation, some many times, but because I kept going back, he kept allowing my to go through it over and over until I learned the lesson."  It has been months, and I feel better now than I have in the past 3 years. I'm currently enrolled in school to further my education.  I have an amazing support system family, friends and coworkers. I thank God daily for another chance at life, because it could have been worse.